cum n check it out!

2009-05-19T08:55:00.000-07:00

aft a long desperate hrs aft pumpfest..
i release my angers,nightmares,and happiness by doing as many routes as possible
despite finishing or nt..
aft sooo long my hesitations are gone..
my fingers cant wait 2 hold on 2 tile
my legs juz wan 2 stay on tat wall..
climbin
is sumthin special

is always been special
i luv u rockclimbing

lyk hw i luv u

it seems life is shorter nw

lesser time 4 myself,family etc

new posts,new events

sumtimes i feel lyk im wastin time
but i still haf 2 b situated thr

started 2 lie
i wander whr it will lead..
late nite slpings
continues in e class too

nt revisin,but haf bigger goals

is this wad i wan..

wadever do,ill strive e best 4 my studies..n 4 u..oni u i guess..
if even u fails me,den i gt ur memories 2 keep my heart go on

my heart will go on..

e cngrts

2009-05-16T00:53:00.000-07:00

helo helo

first of all
cngrts 2 Ashraf,Randy and Janet who qualified to finals of
Novice men and Intermediate women..!!!

they r strong..v.strong

hahahahaha

jealous sia..

hehe

hmm

juz oni i was tokin 2 this gerl whom i lyked alot

she noes abt it too

n she always told me tat let e time deicide whether can we b together

always tellin me 2 get another gerl or who noes whether if i fall 4 another gerl

sooo tat made me luv her even more

n she is att nw too..

she is e 3rd gerl who is att but nt 2 me nor told me tat they r att 2 sum1else..

u noe hw it feels..
lyk F ed up..
realli feels lyk a stupid
i juz wander y these gerls made us wait 4 dem 4 sooo long..tok as if they will b wid us 4 e future but end up they r wid sum1else n 4gt abt us totalli..

im nt angry wid dem but juz feels fucked up..

haiz..

2009-05-15T09:29:00.000-07:00

helo helo
PUMPFEST!!!

omg..
my 1st ever major competition!!

it was sooo gd experience..
i new my limits..

im abit dissappointed..i noe its too late..
if oni i haf trained properly n hardly..i culd haf done btr in this comp..
nvm..
ROCKMASTER `09!!!

tats our biggest achivement..bcoz its organized my SP!!

hmm

ok den..wid more stories 2 cum..tc yo!!

2009-05-06T08:44:00.000-07:00

HEY HEY

BACK!!!!

hahaha
i bet sum of frens r realli angry bcoz i nv update my blog much..
hahahah

okok

i will update it aight..

at least once a wk if im realli busy..
hahaha

once agn

2009-02-21T07:41:00.000-08:00

hello..

juz fallen in luv wid this gerl..
she is a new world 2 me..
but juz e same story...
i lyk her..
but thr is no reaction..
nt even small..

haha..

y m i stuck in this kind of position agn?
n hw m i goin 2 make her luv me??

tough though..

haha..

2009-02-21T04:54:00.000-08:00

helo
haha
im back..

i wasnt soo busy till i gt no time 2 update blog all..
but juz too lazy too update..

hmm

haf alot 2 say bcoz thr haf been alot happened lately..

hahaha...
but nt 2dae..
im gonna change my blog skin soon..
soo aft tat i will update more k

sooo till den

thank u
sori
tc

2008-11-30T08:58:00.001-08:00

OMG...

she is online nw..

im chattin wid her nw..

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..

sooo happy..
my slp all gone..

juz full of happiness..

she is e 1 in a million 2 me..

always will..

i luv u gerl...

ok
gtg

bye

2008-11-28T21:31:00.000-08:00

fri was it..
had mechanics pract..

and as usual my grp did e experiment and end it 1st..haha..

den went off 2 IDEAs..
damn..

my grpmate SUCKS!!!
not every1,but tat oni1 oni..

he thinks he noes everythin..
shit..

i was gettin pissed durin e whole presentation..
i wanted 2 tell him off..
but i juz keepin my anger n was patient..
damn..
aft our presentation,i din even tok 2 him..

i juz went off..

hmm aft tat went 2 Rock gym as normal..
juz slackin thr..
den wen off 2 prayers..
aft prayers went 2 climb..
i m damn weak..
i cant even start properly in sum routes..
how sad can tat b..im v.weak in climbing..
n im v.hesitant..
scared 2 try out e route..

hmmm must change my mind set..

must get strong..
MUST!!

aft climbin at 5pm
i naz n lyla wen 2 SP Star..

wow..their voices are grt..
except sum la..

hmm aft e show came hm,rested,chatted,went 2 bed at 2.30am..

today.sat..
my fav cuz`s weddin..

MUNEERA sis is gettin married..

hmm..

she is e most prettiest gerl noe..

hahaha all e best for her future..

Happy Married life sis..

haha..

ok gtg..bye

2008-11-25T05:31:00.000-08:00

Yst was my wonderful day..

i was in my mechanics lecture then i was msgin her..
den she called me..she said she is gg hm,but i asked her 2 wait 4 me..
soo she oso decided 2 wait 4 me..

so since den i was high,waitin 4 my class 2 b over so tat i can rush n meet her..
haha..
aft class,straight away went 2 meet her..
den we juz sat down n started 2 tok..we nearly toked 4 45 min..
i asked her out oso..she AGREED!!
wow..

soo we went 2 causeway point banquet 2 eat..

we had a gd time together..

we tokin abt alot of things..

soooo nice bein wid her..

den i asked her abt her Boifrend..soo she was tellin me abt him..
we spent abt 3hrs..

n tat 3 hrs was like a dream cum true 2 me..

i noe she is att,but i realli luv her 2 bits..

i wan her 2 b happi..
n if she is happi wid whoever she is nw,den im happi 4 tat..
i dun wan their relationship 2 bcum rough coz of me..who noes she may hate me 4 tat..
but if her relationship bcums a rough 1,den i wuld b bside her consolin n wipin her tears away..

now i oni wanna live for her..

im realli happi tat i gt 2 noe her..

n appreciates her friendship..im nt abusin it..but juz wan this friendship 2 go on n b together..

2008-11-17T07:32:00.000-08:00

Its been 10 days since i blogged..

haha..

days are goin fast..
hmm..

all this while ive done alot..
been to alot of places..

went 4 a shoot wid nazeema..
nw adays im wid my sp ics team more den in rock gym..
gosh im soo missin my rock gym nw..

u noe today( 17/11) was the 1st day since i joined Rock Climbinb club..that i din step into e rock gym..
gosh im soo missin it nw..

hmm...
wadever it is ..rock climbin is always wad i wanted 2 doo nw..

n sp ics is whr i found my frends..

sooo this two nw my core cca(s)..

diff field..thrfore cant n dunnoe which 1 e rate 1st rank..
haha..

hmm..

gonna dance soon this sat..
practicin hard 4 that..
haha..
i realli cnnt dance 4 nuts noe..

soo haf 2 wk hard..

hmm and my tests are cumin soooooon..
soo soon..

hmm soo haf 2 study 4 tat too..
soo scary..

ok..

2008-11-07T07:39:00.000-08:00

ello elloooooooooooooooo

wooosh..
another wk have passed...

hw fast..
time travel faster den light noe..
haha

hmm..

wed had rockclimlbing training..proper training ah..

haha felt sooo damn tired aft tat..n i juz realised im soo weak..
yea...
n today went for climbing oso..

felt gd in e first part..

haha completed couple of routes..

hhaaha..
den went 2 meet thachu and nazeema...
went 2 makan wid them...
hahaha...

nice 2 hang out wid dem..

den went 2 climb agn...

hahaa..

den i did sum routes..

gosh..
my weakness all came back..
cant finish it..

damn angry..

hmm..den went off 2 play badminton wid bob..
hahaha badminton played lyk shit...
damn ass

hehehe..

thr was zulaikha rushin me 2 get redi 2 go hm..hahaha ..but still waited 4 e rest den gtten bath n came hm.nw tired..

tmr gg 2 religious class den off 2 thachu`s place for deepavali..
grt..haha

and ya..

nw i juz came up wid new plan..

hahaha i hope this proj will give me A,nono Distinction!!!!!!

hahaha but 4 me 2 noe the result of this proj,i dunnoe..

it will cnfirm will b 1 yr plus..

haha ...hmm massive proj..but hopefulli it turns out well..
yea..
ok peeps..enjoi e weekend..

c u all soon..
chiowssss...

2008-11-04T05:38:00.000-08:00

woosh..

today..

tuesday..

had a wonderful day..
but i realli hate my mechanic tutorial teacher to the core..

damn idiot...

he is e most EMO lect i haf found..
i hope oni he of his kind exist in SP..

plz..

i dun wan 2 meet another 1..

hahaha..he is sooo irritatin..makin everybody hate him actualli..
yup totalli..

aft mechanics,
we had OC(oral communication)
we played a game..
it was fun..soo many things ive learnt..

n no matter wad,im gonna do btr den last sem..

yup..

wkin hard 4 it..

hmm...

den crash mats arrived 2 ROck Gym..
yay..
soo nice..
nw can climb n bcum strong..

was tokin 2 pradheep n priya durin e brk..haha

den settled money stuff wid nazri,den went off 2 class..

went 2 engineerin math,haha was soo slppy..n slept 4 nearly 45min..
hahaha..
haha.
i cant imagine i slept 4 soo long..

haha.

den woke up n studied properly..
haha..

i dun understand tat much of EM..but im gonna study till i understand.haf 2...

yup..

aft sch went over 2 rock gym..
oni rodger was thr..was tokin 2 him den left 2 ICS rm..
met thachu thr wid pradheep..
was tokin 2 dem..

aft tat went off 2 BBDC...

did my FTP.. im failin all my bklets..

shit..

ftp is soo diff..
haha
gonna pract hard 4 tat too..
gosh..

hahaha..

hmm..den came hm early..aft soooooooo long..

at 6pm i was hm redi..

gosh..

soo early la..

haha..

hmm..
kk
gonna do assignments n all..

tc peeps..
do tag me k..thks

2008-11-03T07:21:00.000-08:00

helo helo..

haha

was busy with stuffs n lazy 2 update blog sumtimes

hahaha..

den had this event on 1st nov..it was fun though..
den sun..
went over 2 pradheep`s hse 4 deepavali..
nono nt 4 deepavali..
4 sing song i think

hahahaa

i went thr at 1230..
n went hm at 9pm

hahaha soo late ah..
hahaha..
hafin lots fun ah..

played sherades n play song 4 song for nearly 3 hrs..

gosh...

haha..

e gerls who e wakkiest..

we boys played e game wid no preperations..but e gerls,prepared lyk they gg 4 war..
haha

soo funni

yea..

yup den wen hm..

i m in luv agn..
weeeeeeee

wow gosh..
i actualli thought of 4gettin her..
but den..

i culdnt..
n was wid her e whole day..
u noe hw pretty was she..
n i realli wish she is nt att n will fell in luv wid me..
i sumtimes feel desperate noe.
oni 2 her ..

but well..wad haf 2 b happen will happen..

yup..

hmm but oh wells..

im still happi..she is gd fren..

sooo..

i hope things will go well this time round..

i realli dun wanna make any mistake this time..

i will curse n swear whoever were 2 spoil this..hahaha..

okok

gtg
bye..

tc

CLimBaPrix

2008-10-19T07:40:00.000-07:00

helo helo..

im back aft quite some time..

was damn busy with Climbaprix..

but it turn out 2 b grt..
realli great.
but of coz..thr were cock ups.
but it was gd though..without it no1 can improve..
soo yea..learnt frm mistakes..

well nw plannin 4 1st Nov..thr is an event at cherschire Home..

haha 1st tyme im plannin such an event..dun realli noe hw 2..

but im thinkin n plannin...

i hope i wont let down my club..coz my whole club is down for the event..

hmm..

ok..n Climbaprix..i competed oso..
i climbe lyk shit..
i culd haf won it..gosh..
im sooo weak..
finger strenght all gone..shit...

hmm..

but Arshad and Ashraf won it..im happi 4 dem..they realli gd climbers..

i gonna train myself realli hard..train wid e seniors..

den 2dae is sunday..
i stayed at hm e whole wen i supposed 2 b in religious class..but mom asked me 2 stay at hm n look aft grandmother as she haf urgent wk outside..damn bored at hm.
hmm...

haf 2 do report on post-climbaprix..
n haf 2 do program list for 1st nov..

hmm..

haha back 2 back events..

ok..gtg

tc..

2008-10-04T08:47:00.000-07:00

hey hey
hmmm

sat redi..wow..
time flies noe..
nearer 2 my climbaprix day
omg..
2 more wks..
den it will it..18th oct!!..
im counting down..
i hope all goes welll..
as its a big event organised by SP..

so ya we can do it!!

haha..
n 2dae i had religious class..haha n teacher was tokin n history..was nice..im juz learnin new n new things..juz nid 2 pay more attention..
yea

n while listenin 2 him,saw my hp.
gt a sms..

it was frm..
HER!
she juz invited me 2 her hse..
haha..hw cool
i nv thought she wuld
hmm

but i haf OCS experiential camp 2 attend..
frm mon till wed..
i feel lyk nt goin 2 tat camp..
mon haf sch climbaprix stuff 2 do..
tues cont n go jalan raya
so as in wed.
hmm..
hw hw
haha..sumtimes i juz wish haf ncc
but sumtimes i wish i waasnt in ncc
i haf rockclimbing,ics..
hmm..
n its nt abt e cca..its e frens..
i luv dem all..
all r nice..
tis is u shuld haf alot of associates
i haf ics,sprc,spsu,religious class(IMSSA),ncc..haha
damn alot la..
arghhh..

haha..nvm can manage..but i sumtimes it juz clashes..
haha

hmm..
soo i guess i will b goin ocs..as who noes..i may nt haf e chance of gg thr agn

haha..

ok..
tmr sun redi..haf religious class..

hmm..hafin fun agn..

ok peeps..

gtg

bYE

2008-10-03T10:03:00.000-07:00

ello...
its 3rd day of hari raya redi..n days r flyin..
n i have nt even started goin 2 other pples hse..
haha its nt me..my mum
she is fastin..
soo she is tired..
n dad wkin
im bored at hm..
actualli doin climbaprix..but im finishin it..n wanna go out..nv go out in e hols tat much oso..damn
haha

but ok la..

well miss F1..
i luvly gerl wked thr..
i mean nt my gerl,but e gerl i lyk wked..

hahaha cool man..

miss it redi..
haf religious class n all..was fun though..
haha..

den came hari raya..haha..
went 2 prayers,
came hm soo slppy..
so came hm n slp...till 3..den aunty was at hm redi..
aft tat left hm 2 grandmother hse..haha
laughed n eat thr..n came hm..

haha..
it was fun though..

haha..
den thur juz passed lyk tat..
yea..fri wen 2 sch..
settled e stuff for climbaprix..

sooo came hm..

haha eat,ate...
haha

haha..

tc k

haha

hmm...

2008-09-24T10:25:00.000-07:00

yo yo..
busy with sch and religious class stuff..
last wk fri till sun had SPSU LTC..
it was nice and cool camp..made alot new friends..
haha..
i was oni 1 odd thr..coz all of dem known each other lyk long b4..
n me was e oni 1 alone thr..
haha..

nvm..juz wen thr 2 make frens oso,n learn new things thr..

haha..

leader ah..ahaha

and yea..days juz goes by..mon wen 2 climb..came hm late for brkfast..haha..mum scolded though..
hmm..
tues n wed stayed at hm n rot..laze ard..n watchin movies..
hitch,troy,bruce almighty..
haha lyk movie marathon..

n i juz learnt sumthin..

aft a while nw..im finalli feelin happi..
bcoz i finally realise,she haf found sum1 for herself to live happi..
i realli wan her 2 b happi..n i wan her 2 find sum1 who she can b happi with..
e smile in her face in much more important..haha..

soo..juz sendin her gd mornin n gd nite msges sumtimes..
she oso doo replys me..gd though..haha..

even enemy`s can b respected..
soo..gonna tok 2 dian soon..
sumthings went between us,n i stopped tokin 2 her..but i juz realised,no use bein isolated frm sum1,n at 1 point u will nid tat person...
yup..

hmm..

oh wells..

nw i realli enjoyin life..
last tyme,i used lyk sum1,juz 2 live wid sum1..desires..
but nw..NV hafin tat prob..coz its solved..
stickin 2 one gerl..even if she att,so wad..
i luv her..nt hatin her coz she luvs sum1else..
haha..

hmm..

tmr thur..goin 2 sch 4 climbin,den meetin up wid cynnthia..haha..
hafin a nice day..hope soo..
ok..
till tmr..
gonna change skin nw..
haha..
soo free..n nw is 0136..
haha..okok
tc
bye

Results!!

2008-09-16T22:44:00.000-07:00

Yo YO
my results are out..
haha..
well..
nt soo happy abt it..
but at least im nt forwarding any modules..
gosh..lucky ah..haha

haha..
i gt 1a,1c,1c+,3d,1d-..
gpa 1.458
hmm..bad ah..
gettin all e advice i nid frm my frens..
haha..well they btr den me..

n wen i woke up i saw my smsed results..
den i slept back,den woke up agn..
another 2 more msges frm nazeema n her..
haha..
she msged me..
askin me hw was my results
oh gosh..
hmm..
i replied back my results..n she adviced me too..
weee..
haha..
n asked me 2 cut down n balance my tyme wid rockclimbin..
haha..
hmm..
i shall try doin tat..
den i asked her whether wad did her guy said abt her results?
haha she said tat he said gd,nt soo bad n all..

haha.
she realli att??
hmm.
i cant believe..

oh man...
but im moving on nw..
well tryin..
but well..nt wanna go 4 another gerl..
mayb..mayb..juz mayb..hmm..
i dunnoe..

well nth is soo impt den studies n climbin..
so..
others ltr ah..
hmm..

but well..she is happi wid her guy..wad can i do..i wan her 2 b happi oso..
soo i must nt bug her more..n im lyk hatin myself alot too..
alot of things ive been nt doin,nt maintainin e standard..

damn..
i feel lyk ive lost everythin..nw tat results r out..gonna push hard e next sem..realli hard..

ok..

ltr in e nite i shall blog agn..

tc

a new sensation..

2008-09-12T09:57:00.000-07:00

elo elo..
a fri..
nice friday..
haha

woke up alil late aft prayin mornin prayers..
n quickly woke up,bath n left 2 sec sch..
1 reason 2 go sec sch,was 2 get signature frm Mr.Low,secondly were 2 see Easwari,n my teachers..
n thirdly 2 take my Leaving Cert..
haha e leavin cert was nice..v.nice..
haha

den aft tat,wen 2 HQ 4 IMT..
haha..
3 CLTS managed e whole thing..gosh..tirin n troublesome..
was countin e details,wen will b e last detail..haha..
n aft done wid tat..wen over 2 sch..gt changed thr..n met up wid khai,arshad n e rest n wen over 2 beach road 4 brkfast..

at brking fast..
we all walked 2 bugis..coz they all wanna take SHEESHA..haha

i dunnoe n nv taken it b4..
soo wen 2 discover wads tat..
haha..it was cool ah..i gt seen it in pics n movies..nw 1st tyme seein it..but i din take it..
i din wan 2 taste it..even though e gerls did..hmm..

came hm at 11pm..saw raudah on e way hm..haha..
n nw online..haha..

hmm..
oh god..im hafin crush..
on sum1..
haha..
agn crush..oh god..NESAAR!!stick 2 1 man..
hahaha...

im nt att,but i oni wan 2 luv her..nt any1else..
but e gerl im hafin crush ryte..is nice..
v.nice gerl,v.swt,n pretty too..
but who noes..she may oso b another gerl i oredi b4..
lyk her..
hmm..

gosh..tough ah..
nvm..
gerls shuld nt trusted easily..

haha..

ok till tmr..

2008-09-11T07:33:00.000-07:00

elo elo

tues had ncc day dinner..

haha..cool sia..

met all my 54th long lost peeps..

haha..

all were dressed up 2 their best..especialli this fellow..

haha..Haikal was soo cool ah..lyk sum celebrity.wearin a suit..

haha..

n he was searin wid all gerls..

haha..

den e food arrived,n e taste of e foods were alryte..

nt sooo nice oso..but aft eatin,we all wen 2 take pics..

here are sum..

we 5..haha..

Mr.Macho n ness..

JC n ness..step macho..haha

den took e shuttle bus wid khai,alvin n etc..

woosh..came hm quite early..wanted 2 relax sumwhr..but all stay far frm me.

most stayin in e west..me in north west..gosh..

haha..

came hm n thought of her..

nw adays i go anywhr oso i think of her..

hmm...

mayb i shuld move on..

but i cant,or 2 say,i dun wan.

haha..

n i still think she is nt att..coz by e way she bhaved 2 me n stuff,i dun think she is ah..

gosh..i realli she isnt..

haha

hmm..well lets see..who noes..mayb thr is another lady who gonna steal my heart nw..wen my heart now is more harder 2 get anywae..hahahahaha

ok..wel..nw thur..

tmr fri,gt imt n rockclimbing lvl 1..still thinkin which 1 2 go..

hmm

okok

tmr den will update more..

n more pic will b up k

e twist

2008-09-08T07:16:00.000-07:00

the nite all fine..toked to my friends,wen 4 prayers,came hm and did my Climbaprix stuffs..
aft tat wen 2 slp..i i thought of her..so i juz called her..n 2 my Surprise..she picked up..
i eventualli jumped on my bed n was soo happi..den msged..n asked her 2 msged me back wen she woke up..so i called my fren and was tellin her how happi i was n i receive this msged below

`excuse me sorry to disturb you,tat day i read your blog and i felt bad and scared,but now i just wish to confess something to you,i am already attached with a guy for 6 months...i am reali sorry for not telling you tis in the first place because i tot you wud change and accept me as a friend but you didn`t... tats why i started avoiding you...and after all those incident happen, now i dun even wana get close to you...i guess you have to bear the consequences for your actions...to tell you the truth, i had alot of me(of actualli) for you,but after a week wen you started to ignore vicky and come after me,tat was wen i cud see your true colours...even wen i heard abt those incident from the rest,i didnt believe it, it was reali hard to imagine tat it was you...but realli how cud you...i am sure you knew wat you were doing at tat time...but i feel reali sad..`

omg..

i hang up my call..
n realli dunnoe wad 2 say..

i cried..yes.i did cried..
once my predsident saw me cryin too wen we were tokin abt sum stuff..
haha..
gosh..

i realli dunnoe wad 2 do..

but until nw i cant believe she is att..but sumhw haf 2 i guess..

n i wish her 2 b e happiest person wid whoever she is wid..
but e thing is..she nv said 2 me..
n nw she is tellin every1 abt it tat she is att..oh gosh..

i luv her more wen e days she ignored me..
she made me think of her more..
she made tok abt her more..
she made hear her more..
she made me luv her more..

but i nv blame her 4 all tis..
i nv..
coz it was me who chose tis...

but i luved sum1 special,luvin sum1 special n will always luv sum1 special..
even her bf cum n whack me up oso i dun care..i will still luv her..

hmm..

ok..

dreams

2008-09-03T22:44:00.001-07:00

ello
wow..today i had a grt dream..
i realli luv e dream..
i still can remember it..

i was in foodcourt wid my frens and HER!!
gosh..
n we started 2 talk..
talk2 and until she lied on my shoulder,and said..

I LOVE YOU!!
gosh..
she said it soo soft and cutely..
wow..
then i sent her back hm..
wow..
wad a moment..

i reallli hope tis wuld cum true..

plz

i juz toked 2 her in msn juz nw..
she oni said hi..

n i did gave her my blogspot..
soo plz
if u read tis..

i m referrin 2 u..
wadever i haf done,its past.promise nt 2 do tat.
im all new.changed myself 4 u..
plz understand.at least tok 2 me n b my fren.

ok..gtg nw..

tc gerl..
luv u always

2008-08-31T11:02:00.000-07:00

wooosh...sun has past..
wen 2 religious n came hm early..
had sum things 2 do..
plannin 4 Climbapric..
haha..
ive realli been thinkin hw exactly a rockclimbin competition wuld take place
haha..

n wen off 2 prayers..
wow..v.relaxin..
wen i came hm..
i was surprised.
she msged me
gosh soooo happie..

haha..
at least she wished me happi fastin mth..

she thought of me!!..
thank u god..

its realli made my nite

hmm..
i realli hope she wuld tok 2 me soon...
she realli meant alot 2 me..

wow..

hmm..ok
gonna pack bag 4 tmr..
haf senior spec course tmr..
haha..
n fastin oso..nid 2 wake up early..
ok den..enjoi..

tata..

i luv u dear..

falling for you

2008-08-30T08:36:00.000-07:00

weee...

hello..

well..on fri all the sprc members went 2 sentosa..nt all..but 15 of us..

hhaha...it was fun...v.fun..haha..disturbed,camwhored..swam..

hmm...most of dem overnight thr..but i culdnt..mayb i culd haf.but i din

den came hm at 2330..v.tired..

slept till sat 10am..i culdnt slp nwadays..

most of tyme wuld wake up early..

hmm..dunnoe y

well..

den sat as usual went 2 religious class..n went over 2 prayers..

n was thinkin of her..gosh..e song u guys r hearin while readin this..

i dedicate this 2 her..

she is impossible 2 find..

a gerl lyk her..

2nite will e nite

ill fall 4 her agn..

plz..

dun make me change my mind..

but well..

i wuldnt n culdnt

n everytime wuld see our pic..gosh..

her silence is realli killing me..

i still findin an answer for her silence

i realli dunnoe y she kept a distance frm me,even nt speakin 2 me..

gosh...

hmm..

nvm..lets her hw long it takes..

always her..

ok..

fastin mth gonna start soon..wee..

soo happie..

ok..

tc den..

tata

2008-08-28T09:07:00.000-07:00

e collar look lyk petals??my fren said..haha

concentratin..studyin noe..

team SpIcs..big family

my another family..my class

been to camp

2008-08-28T08:59:00.000-07:00

woooosh..
tues ended my final paper..
done wid my exam..

haha..soo happie..

den came hm aft exam 2 pack my bag.
goin for campfeast..
my 4th campfeast i guess..
hmm...n hafin holidays till oct..soo will b goin down for more NCC events now..
haha kinda miss ncc also..

hmm..

n soo tues nite had a havoc nite..
my frens n i played soccer at 1am..till 3plus..

i went off early 2 slp..
n culdnt stop thinkin abt her..
i wanted 2 b silent n nt want 2 sms her..but i culdnt help it.gosh its soo pain..
nt hearin her voice,nt seein her sms...hmmm..

so i msged her..n i thought she wuld reply me ltr in e morning.

welll..

she din..
haha..

but nvm..i culdnt force her 2 msg me.wander wad busy wk she hafin..

hmm..

soo wed rained..heavily.n i had 2 go off 4 my driving theory pract.DRENCHED!!

haha n was v.cold.v.v.v.cold.i was shivering.
hmm..
gosh..
spore turnin colder nw.
haha

soo tired oso..

n soo was thur..
thur rain..therefore my camp wen in water..wet whether prog all e way.gosh soo borin..
hmm..

2 days of pure boredness..
haha..

came hm.wanted 2 slp..but culdnt.
i culdnt stop thinkin of her oso..
gosh..

she is sooo into me nw.

i realli luvin her 2 bits.
every moment she made me think of her.
n luvin her more n more..

hmm...

i luv u..

hope 2 tok 2 u sooon..
n i believe i can tok 2 u soon..

ok
tmr den..
cya

weee....no ans still??

2008-08-24T09:57:00.000-07:00

yo yo
hello

haha..
sat n sun wen ok..haha..
sat wen 2 play soccer in e mornin..gosh i played lyk shit..
nt as if i play gd most of e tyme..but tis tyme worst den usual..gosh..wad was i doin man..
hmm..gonna train my soccer skills..cheh cheh..
haha

den went off 2 religious class..
hmm..
i miss alot of it...
so nw gettin back into it..

n u noe sumtin..i haven hear anythin frm her..
so wenever n wadever i do,i think of her alot..
hmm..
she nids time..i understand..but its quite painful oso..wen u suddenly stop tokin 2 sum1 whom u always toks 2..but nvm..if she happi wid it,i m too..
i luv her 2 bein happi..so ya i m happi..

soo on sat we were gg thru sumtin..n my fren was tokin abt a verse in e quran..n tats e verse i was lookin 4 2 explain 2 her wen she nids help on sumthin..
gosh..wadever i do nw,it relates 2 her..haha..

wadssup wid me or wads gg on ah..

i dunnoe..

but nvm..

sun woke up late as usual..n bathed n wen off 2 religious class..teached 2dae..so ya..was fun n learn alot of stuff..
i startin 2 pick up alot nw..aft 3 yrs n nw i startin..haha tats e tyme GOD haf given me 2 pick up in stuff..
haha

n came hm watched olympics closing ceremony..msged nazeema(a olympic fanatic)..haha..
n wen off 2 study..till nw(at 1am)..haha..so fun noe math..n been thinkin of her..i always look at our pic noe..b4 i go slp or wenever im alone..soo nice..
haha..
she is soooo beautiful..n nice ah..
haha..
gosh..

nvm..mayb tis a turnin point ah..

haha..
who noes what awaits 4 them in future..oni e GOD..
hw grt his he..
i luv him alot..

all of us do..

haha

ok pple

tmr exam..math
weee..

bye..

tag tag me k

thks

i dont think she gonna...

2008-08-21T03:20:00.001-07:00

whoooo..

today exam..1 big flop..the paper was easy,straight..but i din study well..
gosh..
see these is wad will happened if u din study properly..
hmm..

nvm..stil managed 2 do..

3 more papers 2 go..

another bigger headache,matrials..
haha..nid alot of memorizin..
gosh

haha..

hmm..

wen 2 civic cntr aft exam..went 2 study wid ridhwan n radzi,radzi wen 2 slp..n snored..whahaha

he ah..
1 kuku noe..

n copied notes frm ridhwan n left hm early..

came hm,on e tv n watched..till i fall aslp..haha..

wen i woke up,i saw 2 miss calls frm atiyah..haha..

sori gerl..din pick up..

den..was thinkin whether 2 msg her or nt..i dun wan 2 disturb her in any way noe..

in e nite i smsed her tat`im soo gonna flop e paper tmr.gosh.hmm y m i tellin u?gd nite,tc n enjoi ur hols`.
n no reply.

hmm..so today i smsed her..till now no reply..i think she is mad at me..i was tokin 2 her as a fren.she wan me 2 see her as fren coz she is nt redi 4 a relationship n stuff.but wen i does that,i dunnoe..she dun wan 2 tok..
hmm..

wads wrong wid me?
mayb i shuld juz let her do own wk..n tok 2 her sumtimes..but i cant..hmm
i dunnoe whether i luvin soo much or juz wan 2 tok 2 her..

hmm..

y shuld i meet her?y must i b close 2 her..?
if these were 2 continue..i realli wish it wuld...n this confirm e gerl im waitin 4..

yup..

n i realli luv u k..

plz..i realli hope u will cum read tis..whoever out thr noes who tis gerl is,tell her..
i realli understands her..n will b e wae she wans me 2 b..hmm

ok..gonna study..

tmr exam..

tc

tc gerll..

why is it like this?

2008-08-20T00:11:00.001-07:00

hello..
mon went 2 sch at 1230..
met up wid frens n studied till 5pm..
den wen 4 exam at 6pm

haha..

e paper was rather tough..
gosh..i dunnoe whether my ans correct or nt..

hmm..came hm at 9..coz paper ended at 8..

while gg back hm,i smsed her..

e happy part is..she replys back..

n e sad part is,she doesnt tok 2 me much..
unlyk last tyme

she answers 2 my sms..but aft a while,she nv replies..haha

hmm..

i understands y..but it juz hard 2 take it..
gosh i wander hw hard was it on her..
wen she got 2 noe wad happened..
damn

im sorry gerl..

n nw adaes i sms her..but alwaes ask her whether she busy or nt..
dun wanna disturb her n make her hate me more..

i realli wanna make it up 2 her..

n tok 2 her..

tell her everythin..
make her a part of me..
make her my life..

but it juz takes time..alot of tyme..

more den i expect..

yup..

i realli wish 2 b wid her..
but i wan 2 real n sincere 2 her..so i wanna wait 2 noe her more,n she must get 2 noe me more.
now oni she gtten 2 noe a lil bit of me..n 4 tat redi,made her dissappointed n stuff..
e more she get 2 noe me,hope e more she wuld trust me..

hmmmm..

she is my v.gd fren..
n i wan tis gd fren 2 b bside me 4ever..realli 4ever..no1 else..

n hope 1 dae i culd make it up 2 her..

i relli luv u..

ok..

till ltr..

tc..

why is it like this?

2008-08-20T00:11:00.000-07:00

2008-08-18T08:09:00.000-07:00

hey hey
yo ello
i hope u pple are doin well..

hmm...
today woke up early for driving practice..
haha was tired but it was ok..

while walkin 2 e mrt stn..met Indira,my pri sch fren..
so went 2 Bukit Gombak wid her,she got down at Bukit Batok..

hmm..
aft practice,saw Gayathiri..she was taking her Final Theory evaluation..wow..alot pple gt licence redi..
im slow..gosh..

haha

i hope 2 take licence by Feb 2009..
hopefulli..

haha..
hmm..den came hm..
helped mum..

painted my hse..

now my house bcame The Pink House..

all pink..hahaha

n aft a day..
i smsed her..
i thought she wuldnt reply..
but
SHE DID!!!

OMG...im soo happie..

but she busily revisin 4 sumthin..
so dun wanna disturb her..

n i asked her 2 msg me aft she has done..well..im still waitin..

i gonna wait 4 her..

realli n seriously waitin 4 her..

hmm..

ok..
n nw im studyin..
for thermo..

i now only gettin 2 noe e formulas n applyin it..omg..
haha..

but nvm..
at least i do it nw..
even though its late..

so juz go tmr n write it out..

haha..

hmm..

ok

gtg..more wk 2 do..

tc..till tmr

thank u..

tag me plz..

2008-08-17T07:51:00.000-07:00

helo helo

hmm..
my sat bcame a sad DAy too..
my dearest luv msged me on fri nite..
at abt 1 am
haha eventualli i was awake..n was thinkin of her..coincidently she msged me.
whahaha imagined hw happie i was..

den we juz chatted..
n her 3rd sms was,`ok now u tell what happened?`
omg..she oso wanna noe abt wad happened..n she oso must noe as i dun wanna hide anythin frm her..
so i did told her wad happened..
n i guess she hated me more..

n i noe she dun luv me..nt yet k.
haha..

but i realli do luv her..

n aft tokin 2 her,i seriously realised hw idiot was i 2 bhave lyk tat
arghhh..

n until nw i oni rmb her name in my mind..
i dun miss her..

coz she lives in my heart..
so lyk hw 2 dun miss ur family members wen they r at hm,i dun miss her as she is in me..

hmm

i realli wanderin hw m i gonna make it up 2 her..
gosh..
its gonna b hard..

nw im juz focusin on my exams..
haha..

but still her name is wad rings inside me..

hmm

i realli dun wanna bhave lyk tat agn..
nw im realli committed 2 her..
ONI 2 HER

i realli luv her..

plz gerl,give me a chance..

all relatioships starts wid one sided luv..

so...

i still blieve tat 1 dae she wuld understand me n luv me..
plz..

i will b committed 2 u..

if u guys were 2 read tis,n noe who e gerl is..haha..e least u can do is 2 make her read this..
haha..

well..

at least tell her tat im serious...
i wuld nv do such a stupid act agn..plz

hmm

ok
nid 2 go n study..tues exams..

gosh..

haha..ok

tag me ok

tks..
bye

2008-08-15T09:03:00.000-07:00

my ICS team

The mask(white oni)

My Name..(duh)

2008-08-15T08:03:00.000-07:00

hi agn...
haha

u noe thr is sumtin good..
on thur,which is on 30th july..i saw this gerl..
same cca..so hafin rehearsal for some event..

my fren intro her 2 me as we met in e train while goin hm..
n so e next day we met 2 go sch 2gether..

sunday was the event..
n i met her for brkfast.bought her brkfast..
wen 2 sch..had fun..
send her back hm coz it was 12 midnight...
haha..
n slowly..

haha...

fall 4 her..
raging hormones..??oops

no la..love??
crush i guess..

but till now i thinkin of her..
send her home couple of times..

hmm

but now aft whatever has happened..

she now hafin a BAD impression on me..
not wanna tok 2 me oso..

so v.bad now..

hmm..my fate noe..
haha..

nvm..time wuld change..
hope 2 b fren wid her agn..

love?can think ltr..frenship 1st..

ya..

what have i done??

2008-08-15T06:17:00.002-07:00

helo..
wow..its been a hectic week..

sorry for not blogging for many days..

wasnt busy..
but being lazy..

hmm

so..
this week..

mon,had test..n den went 2 relax at my rockclimbing gym..
aft that met up my ICS frens at my ICS room..

was tokin shit,crap,making fun of others..
haha..

it was nice..so nice..
den went hm wid a gerl..

mayb i shuldnt haf..shuld haf stayed at ics rm..damn

i now hating that day..

a gerl.who laughed,giggled,toked..lyk a vgd fren..
n wenever she laughed she wuld bang her head into me..n came closer..so i thought ok.
n eventualli..wen 2 hug her..
n juz a hug oni..nth much..
mayb i shuld haf stopped thr..
but NO..
i went 2 send her home..
gosh..
MY BIGGEST MISTAKE..

she even borrowed money from me..but i juz gave.she said she wuld return me..but well..din..but nvm..money will go n cum..i dun care abt it anywae..

so went 2 send her home,n juz hang out her block.n well..bcame close agn,hugged her,n wen 2 kiss her..well.juz on e cheeks..n i even asked her whether can or not.den all laughed.n even she said im nice 2 b hugged.
DAMN

y is she lyk tat?
or y WAS I LYK THAT?
i should haf alighted wen my station came.
damn it..

i seriously feel lyk bangin my head..haha..
no la..ookok
thats nt e prob...
thur,yst i mean she told tis 2 her fren lyk as if i raped her..
den tat idiot,wen 2 tell more..
damn it..

nw e grp i hang out wid,noes abt it..
gosh..
all sees me lyk i raped her lyk tat..
damn it..
as 4 me..i nv do anythin wrong in purpose..
i haf my own feeling which sumtimes cant b controlled..oops..but nw i do..

hmm..

wen a guy hugs a girl,n if she dun lyk it,wad wuld she do..??
stop e guy frm huggin her,or slap him 4 tryin 2 ryte..
arghhh...well she din..n nw..
i gettin e bad names..
hmm world is unfair at times..

n 2day she smsed me..
askin me whether i gt did that b4 2 other girls..
wth..
do i look lyk a pimp?womanizer?cheap idiot?2 u

hmm

nvm..
cant control e mouths of others..
n heck care..

n if u tend 2 read THIS..
plz keep it 2 urself..dun ask me anythin or spread it 2 others..
plz
this is my blog..thats y i wrote it here..
n i dun wan 2 hear this out..plz

i hope u guys wuld understand..

thank u

what have i done??

2008-08-15T06:17:00.001-07:00

2008-06-27T21:24:00.000-07:00

alvin zakk n me.. zakk n me..in syf 08

2008-06-27T20:42:00.000-07:00

YES....finalli...
syf haf overed...
haha..

loved this yr`s syf...a new experience..

i was the ncc supporting contingent 2ic..
haha...was so fun...

haha oh ya...met Zakkiah..my NCO band camp fren...wow..its been 2 yrs since we met..

haha she started to scream my name n alvin`s wen she saw us..
haha..

its nice

den aft e whole thing was overed,i wen 2 take my bag,end up i cant find..
runnin ard findin my bag till sweat lyk mad...wooosh...get changed as fast as possible..

aft tat all of us wen 2 leisure park...
oh ya must sumthin abt leisure park..a mall with nice things but no1 to shop thr..its big..
but no1...so borin haha..lyk dead..haha

so we walked to kfc..ate thr...n saw Utha..my another long lost nco band fren..haha..nice 2 see dem back..haha..

aft walked 2 e bus stop wid zarian n muhaimin...came hm at 11pm..so tirin...

hmm...

ok gonna slp..tc..

2008-06-26T09:41:00.000-07:00

hahahaha HELLLLLLLOOOO...

woooooshhh....

aft may nw june oso gonna end

haha..im m a slow blog updater..sori..haha

im currently in SYFOC

wooo..shiok..sum tirin event..my back aches wen i stand in e parade..imagine my cadets..hw much they go thru gettin scoldin frm us,stand straight everydae
haha...i mean nt everydae,but e whole trainin they do drills..

hmm...
my cadet tyme oso lyk tat..haha fun...cadet no nid 2 think much..haha..c/offr must think alot..

hmm...

ok..tmr another big dae..aft tat i update..

n i saw tis gerl in syf..wow alot of gerls r pretty..but tis gerl saw her once n lyk wanna noe her more,wanna b wid her..haha
love??mayb..
hahaha

okok enough..

tc bye

~nesaar~

tired

2008-05-08T04:59:00.000-07:00

wooosh...i am soo happie..gt back my blog,getting a hang in my studies..
hmmm...
yst was a cool dae..din feel tired n so went to climb..oh ya i am in rockclimbin..wooosh..iam happie 2 b in tat..

hmm...

been changed alot nw..

n poly life is like wow..haha..it looks relaxin but it isnt..n its look stress..but its nt..haha..
cool ah..

but tdae,haha...

we had CD(character development) so my lecturer planned 2 haf a soccer game within e class..

n 2 my surprise alot of my classmates played well..
i realli mean it..

haha..played alot 2dae..but i was being selfish at times..i din pass e ball n was playin solo..hmm..

den went 2 C programming..wow..i went blank..i mean nt faint..but nth was cumin out frm my brains wen my lecturer asked us 2 do e programme..gosh..haha..

hmm...nw feelin tired..so gonna rest n study..

tata...

2008-05-05T07:33:00.000-07:00

Hie pple...after soo long..my blog has came back to life again...WOOOOO

haha..

life have been miserable at times lately..
hmm

juz posted to Singapore POlytechnic...n hafin fun thr...haha..new things,new gerls,new friends,new modules..hmm

new updation will b added to this blog soon..so till tmr..see ya..
tc